therapy feelings turned poetry

i feel a constant looming sense of anxiety

a pit in my stomach prohibiting me from regulating the energy in my body

a lump in my throat

a sense of nausea and pain … hurt … isolation

on these days i feel alone

i feel disconnected from the ones i love the most

disconnected from my community … from my home

i feel like a burden who is incapable of release

i feel broken

i feel alone

i sit and think to myself how could someone feel so alone in a world full of humans … full of souls

what is this dooming sense of isolation and how do i alleviate myself from it

how do i heal the soul who spends all their time trying to heal others

how do i process and progress if i’m trapped in a false identity?

how do i develop an identity that society has spent years trying to erase

trying to convince me that identity does not exist

that my identity is a justification for violence and hate

it’s hard to love yourself in a society who sets it’s standards based on a colonized westernized way of thinking

you don’t fit these standards bc they were not made for you

they were made to oppress you

find the power that lies within and spread it across your community

give endless love to receiving souls

and protect your love from those who’s hearts aren’t yet ready for it

be the voice

be the change

for silence has always been our destruction