nightfall

suicidal ideation

who am I to take away gods creation

the ultimate form of demonstration

all I want is a mental vacation

alone in my bed

cant stop the thoughts from swiriling around in my head

can’t shake this feeling of dread…

what does it mean to be dead?

consumed with anger and pain

no one there to place the blame

so in my head these thoughts turn to shame…

what does it feel like to be able to give your emotions a name?

loneliness and isolation

keeps my soul feeling a constant sense of depravation

they always preach communication

but dont know what it takes to lay that foundation

to address the pain accumulated through generations

and not just the pain that comes from any given situation

funny how we were never given the proper education

to learn how to navigate through difficult conversations

journal entry

2/21/24